Concern

 Life is a roller coaster ride. 

I guess that’s why it is life, and not alive. 

A minute of 😡 anger.

A second of 😁 joy.

A mind. A chain! 

Linked with all the past, present, and future constraints.

Driving me insane.  

Some held tight.

Some let loose. 

I do worry for the lives, that God ordained on me to groom. 

Like any woman of commitement,

I have my highs and my lows.

Agonizing moments. 

Unvotunered decisions. 

Payback of rejected suggestions.

And still, still I care for him above all. 

I want to let go, but my kids hold me from doing so. 

They ask me,”Do I have a choice?” I always said, “Yes!”

But now, today, I say,”NO!”

Is it culture?

Is it love?

Is it commitement? 

Is God?

Is it fate? Or 

Is it jut hope? 

I don’t know what it is, except that SAM is my strength, and my weakness in all. 

And for them, just them I will go and embrace all odds. 

I shed a tear or two today, for my Manahil went wrong in an assignment that wasn’t her fault. 

I lost my temper, and did I shout? 

Oh, I shouted like a roaring cloud. 

It hurt, it ached, it pained more than she or I could take. 

We both wept, and then said, “It’s okay, we’ll try it all over again.” 

These our my battles, my daily struggles. 

Don’t forget they are dependent souls who I am ordained to make whole. 

So, I pray each day from heavens above, to shower His Mercy

For miracles happen...

And maybe, just maybe, SAM is ONE.

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