Love vs. Ego - No Complain

No boundaries can define this emotion that intertwines. 

It’s subjective to its many kinds. 

It varies from time to time. 

Sometimes it’s malignant, 

And sometimes it’s benign. 

It’s a feeling that ought to be unleashed. 

I regret many things,

Especially when I let my ego come in the way.

Today was that day, SR 240 was already paid. 

It wasn’t the money that I stole or waste.

It was the moment that will never come again. 

It was my children’s right, and I should have been more wise.

But sometimes, just sometimes I think I’m vain. 

Today was that day, that I stole their happiness away.

I was in two boats, where I should have said it’s okay.

But fear got to me yet again

And I instead of acting in faith, surrendered to feared fate.

The gate to regret, and guilt, and shame.

What if their revision is not done?

What if they mess up their exam tomorrow?

What if this wasn’t done in the first place? 

The what if game, didn’t allow me to live the moment insane. 

Sometimes, it’s better to live in vain 

Than to suffer in pain. 

I regret stealing their moment away. 

I am sorry that I complain 

But sometimes, just sometimes I think I am vain.

Burning myself in flames, 

Holding myself against the blame. 

Sometimes. 

Just sometimes, 

I have to move with the flow of the moments game.

To save myself from the flames of blame.  




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